I think i'm going to wait... at last i learn something from my past mistake... after looking  into my numerous failed attempt to woo a lady... i think i got it all figure out.. hahahaha just kidding... i will never understand women... not now.. not ever... unless somedude decide to share the knowledge i'll be in the dark as usual... but this time.. i'll wait.. trying very hard to convince my heart that this is the right thing to do... i'm pretty sure there are other guys who is trying to erm what's the word... hmm "mengorat" her.. but i definitely cant compete with them... so i just wait and see.. who know an opportunity might just represent itself to me later.. huhuhuh finger crossed...

What a weekend it is shaping to be.. too bad that this weekend happened to be my turn be the on call person for my team at work.. dammit... so there goes my chance of going to the Sepang F1... shit shit shit... this would my second time going there... and i'm pretty sure the ticket is there... complimentary of course.. there is no way i'm going to forked out that kind of money to watch a car race... and F1 engine is the loudest engine i have ever heard so far... the best part are those "skimpily"  (<< ade ke perkataan nie?)  dressed chicks and trust me.. there are a LOT... athe worst part is... Sepang is super hot... you'll baked in the sun and you'll be sweating like there is no tomorrow.. that's probably the reason why most of the girls there wore super short skirts and super small and tight shirt.. haha...

And on Sunday night, the battle for supremacy in the premier league heats up... Manchester United will host Liverpool at old trafford and Arsenal will host Chelsea at the emirates (if i'm not mistaken la)... i know under Rafa Benitez, Liverpool have a very poor record against Manchester United... but i'm very optimistic (whoa suddenly a pesimistic loser like me pun boleh jadik upbeat and optimist eyy) about Liverpool chance to get something out of the game... 3 points would be very nice but i'll a draw at the very least... and if Liverpool wins, i'll be going to the office on Monday with my Liverpool jersey for sure.. and will definitely rub it in to my red devil supporting friends at the office... but if we lose... i'm definitely going to be at the butt of every joke for that day.... Go Torres...

Recently i bought myself a new phone.. a nice and shiny Nokia N82... this is the second phone that i have ever bought... never really like the idea of having a phone with me so people can always reach me but as i have written before... i'm in love with cameras... so this N82 was bought purely because of its picture taking  capabilities... and so far i have been very impressed with it... nice bright xenon flash, auto focus, red eye reduction, 5MP with quite an impressive settings. My old sony ericsson camera phone got nothing on this phone. N82 packed an impressive other bonus as well... WLAN, Assisted GPS, 3G capabilities, 3.5mm jack for head phones (definitely loving this), 2GB micro SD, and many more... 2 hindsight.. well at least it is with the phone that i currently used... if you have vibrating alert on... then when it is trigger by a call or when you wanted to test the ringtones.. and you tilted the phone side way.. there will a noisy buzzing sound coming from the phone.. probably from some moving parts inside the phone..  the other one is its tiny keypad... too small for my big fingers.... not enough to disappoint you but damn annoying... especially when this phone that i owned is just a week old... dammit... oh and i changed my number as well... i blamed the "amoi" at Maxis centre for that.. all i wanted that day was to upgrade my "zaman pra sejarah" SIM card to 3G SIM card... and she just cannot help but to promote post paid promotion... and with her good looks and damn mesmerinsing voice... what is a guy to do.. say NO?... i was mesmerised and there was no going back... so that's how i "managed" to change my number.. haha.. what can i say... "saya insan yang lemah"...

love life?? like i have one anyway... there's this one girl that i actually like... but heck i dont stand a chance... so that's the end of that... which from my point of view.. . really sucks... but i cant change anything... my life is filled with heart-ache and disappointment... it could be worst... she might not even knew me.. at least for now we are friends... surely i cant ask for more than this... i know there will be a point not much further ahead where i will want more than this... and i will end up saying something stupid that would make things between us so awkward that we will end up to be stranger to each other... though i truly hope this will not happen... i cant help it that i really like her.... i'm stupid .. i should have learn how to block this mushy lovey feeling so at least my life will be less complicated and less disappointment will happen to me.... life's sucks... i know

//** Liverpool lost... keciwa sungguh.... wish it could be different... so it's the fight for 4th place... just like before...

- the only thing that keeps me wishing on the shooting stars - Teardrops on my guitars, Taylor Swift

So the election comes and go.... when it came, i was like.. dammit.. i did not get myself registered as a voter once again... i know i've said in the past that i dont really believe that my vote counts for anything... and i still do ..but the only different this time around is i got a real "ceramah" from my friends who are registered and some of the issues that were brought up by the political parties hit close to home... i guess now that i'm older... this issues started to have an effect on me... so all i'm saying is man i wish i registered myself this time around... definitely will register for the next election... haha

And since the ruling aprty did not managed to get the much sought after 2/3 majority, it will be a very interesting 5 years for us Malaysian... i'm definitely looking forward for the promised changes... who knows, maybe changes is good... i know some or few of the ruling party candidate deserve better because they did do their work properly and have no corruption allegations what so ever but i guess the people are sick and tired or being lie to and treated like an idiot... so they voted for the other party... i think this is what they call the pyramid effect or some shit like that... what ever happened near the top effect the bottom as well... and that is saying something... it'd be blantant ignorance to say otherwise... so it happened... and i'm all for changes.. not drastically but in a slowly but surely way... let see in 5 years time if the changes are good or bad...

ok enough on the election... surely i cant wrote anymore than this.. politics is always interesting if you are an observer but never interesting once you are involved...

Liverpool is going to San Siro early tomorrow morning... and i will be in front of the TV for sure... i hope they win.. i really do.. a draw will suffice.. heck even a 1-0 lose will suffice but i want them to win... they are on fire at the moment (damn, i wish we could skip december and january).. i hope the fire continue to burn.. and burn the italian we will.. you'll never walks alone... if we lose .. there will be a barage of insults from my fellow friends who, most of them are anti-liverpool...

i think i wont be able to get what i wanted from her... i know, same old same old...but hey... what do expect from a loser... tapi biarlah... i just need to tell my heart to stop feeling that way about her... and everything will be alright... (yeah right... easier said than done)....

" only a fool would let you back in" --> marit elisabeth larsen